Waiting?

every night
i unwillingly keep myself 'to become unconscious'
or either way i call it 'to fall asleep'
why? silly thought of mine:
being unconscious in the night is little bit a waste of time
LOL
stupid right?
that's what my sis said about me =D
ya i agree with her, but but but
i just can hardly make myself to fall asleep purposely
i just can easily make myself to stay awake as well

LOL
well...what have i been thinking tonight?

i'm thinking about a matter of 'waiting'
waiting for the best instead of the one u have now?
or else u will be regretted someday?
how to predict the future?
whether or not you'll get the best?
i dunno, either do u(ya the fortune teller might know)
but i guess i can at least
predict how i'll feel in the future right?
oh ya... not predict but know
i know the one i'm going to have will always be the best
while others that appear soon will only be someone else's best
is it a good idea? no idea really...

as a matter of fact
the truth will always make u an opportunity
to see a better, nicer, prettier 'whatever' in the future
but i can sure that, it won't and never be
the best, the nicest, the prettiest
as your desire will never stop populate
desire n expectation for the best should be vanished after all?

so... should i made up my mind to keep a good
instead a better or the best?
this is a questioning post actually
not an expository post
LOL
so anyone with any idea
pls leave n share your idea with me
thanks!




ashley
[sun is rising... ash is falling... asleep~ LOL]