做自己

我不會勉強你愛我
也不會不討好你來愛我
我只是在努力的做自己
努力學習做一個懂愛的人 ♥ :))

沒關係

習慣說 沒關係。

 沒什麽。 

把門關上。 

跟誰也沒關係。

也不用在乎有沒有關係了。

是時候把門關上了。

加油。

nvm

愛我，請不要無所謂。 愛你，我卻學會無所謂。 只是很想和你在一起。

3分鐘熱度

Not afraid of love.

Not afraid of hurt.

Not afraid of bruises.

Not afraid of tears.

Not afraid of separation.

Whatever it is.

Whenever I look back.

They put a smile on my face.

Or even though there might be tears as well.

It is really what I get.

It's warm.

It's memory.

It's my past.

It makes who I am today.

I choose to believe.

I choose to love you.

A much as I could.

A long as I could.

No regret.

It's only 3 minutes.

 

相信。

當你連要我相信你的力氣都沒有了，
都無所謂了，
那… 我還要相信你嗎？

我對你的信任，
終究只在於你要或不要…

既然你已無所謂了，
那我又何必有所謂呢？

Walk Me Home

still longing for decent simplicity (: 14:40

4th September, 2009

Let's Head Home

最幸福的事

请不要庸人自擾。

不要輕易沮喪。

不要永遠埋怨。

不要笑容裏，總是藏著眼淚。

最幸福的事，

自己還活著，

還感受著心跳，

眼睛還看得見心愛的人。 

不要到心跳停止那一刻才懂得後悔。

現在還來得及。

你是幸福的。 :)

♥ 간단한 행복

Vision without action is a daydream.

Action without vision is a nightmare.

4/25/09 10:21 AM

寫寫寫，我只能不停的寫。

不停的寫，而已。 

《下個星期去英國》

不斷地重播 眼淚也可以留下。

我是個不知足的傢伙。

跟着哼的我……

“ 我知道我想要

卻又不敢對你說

因爲我已改變太多…”

心很痛 可是卻不能做什麽。

 爲什麽事，總與願違？

 我只能不停的寫。

不停的寫，而已。

tears

當眼淚流下來的時候

才發現

自己是心痛的 是勇敢的 是認真的

誰都不是自己眼淚留下的原因

當眼淚流下來的時候

我也發現

自己自由了 快樂了 堅強了

誰都不是自己眼淚停下的原因

last monday

unexpected/
late/
approach/
opposite/
greet/
inquiry/
nervous/
technical problem/
side/
happy/
share/
read/
stupidity/
embarrassment/
teach/
knowledgeable/
smart/
embarrassments*/


conversation
silly
stupid
embarrassing
happy
friend.


peace =)

simple me, simple wish

i'm just a simple girl
leading a simple life
achieving simple achievements
aiming simple goal
doing simple things
having simple things

and now,
i'm just a simple humanbeing
who's praying for a simple wish

i should think positively

Faith

faith, faith, faith


1st faith
the belief you hold on to
a force that keeps you move forward
to be enthusiastic about you life
to reach out for your dream
a strength that pick you up whenever u fall


2nd faith
the trust that you put on others
believe in the one you love and care
generates a stronger bond between us
so that you are never alone
so that there's always someone you can rely on


3rd faith
uncertainty that leads nowhere
insecurity that brings hesitation



if i have no faith
i might not go further

if i have no faith
i might have no companion

and so,

i have faith
i have hesitation that leads nowhere



i'm about to lose my uncertain faith
my positivity is soon leaving me here

alone

... ...


should i keep holding on?
is there an answer?




is that a faith?

The Best Prevention

"Shut your eyes and turn blind,
just so you won't cry.
Turn your heartbeat off and get numb,
just so you won't hurt."

untitled me

"you see nothing
cuz i'm nothing to you.
i see everything
cuz you're everything to me."


-ashley is actually assuming-

開關

不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心
不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心
不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心
不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心
不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心
不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心
不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心
不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心
不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心
不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心
不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心 不開心



九十九個不 開心
只因沒一個 關心

計較

做朋友的應該不需要計較那麽多

但是，
當你的存在被視為理所當然的時候，你會計較嗎？
當你的意義都不被珍惜，不被重視時，你應該計較嗎？
當你的好意都被認爲沒意義的時候，你有必要計較嗎？
當外人都看不過眼，說你笨的時候，你還需要計較嗎？

也許，我應該
或許，我需要

可是，我的心告訴我
괜찮아요... say that I'll be alright
朋友，是不應該計較的。

就算我的存在，從來都不具任何意義。

無奈嗎？

也許只有自己親眼看見，親身體會
才會明白事情原來就只不過是如此而已。
從前的不了解，不諒解，不明白
和從前的看不開，答案其實就只有這樣。
我們都一樣，喜歡跟喜歡的人一起。
有些人無論怎樣，都不會是你想見的那位
大概我們都是這樣的人吧。
分別也許只在於誰傷人與誰被傷而已。
但到了最後，那也已經不重要了。

Dear Diary

the fact is, i wrote diary.
the problem is, i'm not writing a diary.
the question is, will i still write diary?



haha... whatever
i'm just going to tell facts in my blog now
i 'met' my old diary books few days ago
and i paid them a visit as well
guess what? they remind me once again

i'm a better ashley now

let me introduce you guys these great heroes of my life
they indicate the transformation of myself
i guess that's what a diary means in life, right?






hehe... diary
i'm going to reveal you to the public! =P
(p/s: i'm proud to have you in my life)

This is my 2nd book of diary in 2004
(yeah i fail to keep the very 1st one back in 2002)

front view
yeah dolce & gabbana... whatever
i did enjoy scrapbook-ing by that time
yet another economic way to alleviate my boredom
and entertain my sight! this is more than a diary
it's a scrapbook actually! many stuff inside =)

back view
=D i like this better cuz it's a pocket
i can change the look of it whenever i like

another scrapbook-ing work of mine
my best friends(2 exceptions) photo back in...
err 2003? i can't recall at all! poor memory T_T
(p/s: miss those days! it was a barbecue night... didn't have for so long d)

front page for my diary section
quote:
"celebrating life together is the best way to strengthen your friendship!"
and i did it, i've done i, i'll do it

a piece of memo in between
here's my diary during form 5, senior high period
oh! that was a pathetic ash back then
too pessimistic!!! >_<

full view of my writings
'entries' during my 'after spm' period!
my classmates used to complain on my handwriting
too small.. yeah, as a matter of fact
this really isn't reader-friendly at all, but it's writer-friendly still!
who else will read this but me? LOL

i love to do drawing upon my words, do u?
(oh! my words could be read clearly, but i don't mind, it's trifle)

little dolpin, love to draw it after watching a drama
(p/s: why did i edit this pic? haha..
something's need to be censored i suppose =p)










This is my 3rd book of diary in 2005
(the most 'full-filling' book among all, memories~ it's my favourite!)

front view
i put a sticker on it, to... modify it a bit?
i think this book is good enough
i don't have to do much
i don't wanna spoil the pretty face anyway =)



full view of my writings
see the girl next to my signature? make me laugh XD
the memo beside is my last piece of 2004



as time goes by, my words get
smaller and smaller~ more and more~










This is my 4th book of diary in 2006
(it lasted less than 10 pages, something bad happened, never wish to jot it down!
still, i like the 'entries' before, colourful! as i was taking P.A course during upper6
colour pencil! my old buddy~)

front view
this book, cost me rm7.90!
i really have no idea why i bought this thing!
i guess this is one of the reason that stop me from diary-ing!
LOL~ i'll sure blame on it!



i did it again~ modifying...
with hellokitty, my favourite cartoon!
still, i could scarcely succeed T_T blame it on the cover!


drawing section, just before i started my ride(write) =D


memo stickers were added to 'discourse' my stories! =)


oh! that's a funny story!
but i'm just going to let you see the colours


after i stopped diary-ing, i used to write something inside
like this, just doodling around
(p/s: but i mean what i wrote, i wrote what i mean)









This is my 5th book of diary in 2007
(i did not wrote much either, just during my working life at
casino de genting as a croupier or dealer)

front view
'little black book' appears again if u notice! ok, if don't, forget it~
see the title? i'm HOME AWAY~ haha from jan till may... long?



back view
nothing special.. just cut and paste... sth good, sth nice =)



full view of my writings
so tidy... haha... it didn't last for long!



instead of just jotting down my story, i did some exercises on it too
during my training period! it's a dealer's routine!
yeah~ i'm a profession!! hehe =p



last but not least, my drawing
just to cheer myself up! =p







ok... that's all about the fact!
will the question get an answer?
no idea
LOL
let's just wait for the enthusiasm to come back
i'll still enjoy visit those buddies once in a while
they remind me, encourage me, teach me, save me
much appreciate to u guys~

till then,
i guess it's the end of my today's post









goodbye diary!

with love,
ashley

my foible, my lies

i cry easily
my tears would drop easily
doesn't sound like me right?
yeah cuz you never see me cry, frequently
but still what you see isn't always what you 'get'
get it?
i don't cry, that's the lie
the truth is, i can never cry in front of you
you, you and you, all of you

my foible is?
i love to cry
i love to make myself cry whenever i'm 'free' and alone
why?
does foible need a reason?
ok, just to make myself feel better cuz i believe that
there will always be rainbow after rain
so i need "rain drop, tear drop"
reasonable right?
just an economic way to cure my depression

ironically, whenever you are around me
no matter how sad i am
how desperate my tears tend to fall
my face insist to remain silent
fake a smile

yeah, that's a lie
but you'll never know
i know i'm quite good in acting
that's why until now
you still have no idea about who i am, who i used to be
or you just choose to ignore, either do i
i choose to act silly, we all like to act silly
nothing happened, nothing at all

i'm a weirdo sometimes
i do things that not everyone does
i think things that not everyone thinks
i get things that not everyone gets

so
do u get my lies?