my foible, my lies

i cry easily
my tears would drop easily
doesn't sound like me right?
yeah cuz you never see me cry, frequently
but still what you see isn't always what you 'get'
get it?
i don't cry, that's the lie
the truth is, i can never cry in front of you
you, you and you, all of you

my foible is?
i love to cry
i love to make myself cry whenever i'm 'free' and alone
why?
does foible need a reason?
ok, just to make myself feel better cuz i believe that
there will always be rainbow after rain
so i need "rain drop, tear drop"
reasonable right?
just an economic way to cure my depression

ironically, whenever you are around me
no matter how sad i am
how desperate my tears tend to fall
my face insist to remain silent
fake a smile

yeah, that's a lie
but you'll never know
i know i'm quite good in acting
that's why until now
you still have no idea about who i am, who i used to be
or you just choose to ignore, either do i
i choose to act silly, we all like to act silly
nothing happened, nothing at all

i'm a weirdo sometimes
i do things that not everyone does
i think things that not everyone thinks
i get things that not everyone gets

so
do u get my lies?