ING!

Another life saver that just
Save me from become homeless!!!

ING씨!

Thank you very very very much!!!

고마워요!


♥사랑해요!!

good night


(^_____^)

計較

做朋友的應該不需要計較那麽多

但是，
當你的存在被視為理所當然的時候，你會計較嗎？
當你的意義都不被珍惜，不被重視時，你應該計較嗎？
當你的好意都被認爲沒意義的時候，你有必要計較嗎？
當外人都看不過眼，說你笨的時候，你還需要計較嗎？

也許，我應該
或許，我需要

可是，我的心告訴我
괜찮아요... say that I'll be alright
朋友，是不應該計較的。

就算我的存在，從來都不具任何意義。

need some time tested beauty tips?

Time Tested Beauty Tips

For attractive lips, speak words of kindness.

For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people.

For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry.

For beautiful hair, let a child run his or her fingers through it once a day.

For poise, walk with the knowledge you'll never walk alone.

People, even more than things,

have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed;

Never throw out anybody.

Remember,

If you ever need a helping hand,

you'll find one at the end of your arm.

As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands,

one for helping yourself, the other for helping others.

The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears,

the figure that she carries,

or the way she combs her hair.

The beauty of a woman must be seen from in her eyes,

because that is the doorway to her heart, the place where love resides.

The beauty of a woman is not in a facial mole,

but true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul.

It is the caring that she lovingly gives,

the passion that she shows,

and the beauty of a woman with passing years only grows!

- Sam Levenson

The poem was written by the late educator-humorist Sam Levinson for his grandchild

and read by Audrey Hepburn on Christmas Eve, 1992.

It was also used by Ms. Hepburn on occasion when she was asked for beauty tips.

(From Audrey Hepburn by Barry Paris, 1996, Putnam)

無奈嗎？

也許只有自己親眼看見，親身體會
才會明白事情原來就只不過是如此而已。
從前的不了解，不諒解，不明白
和從前的看不開，答案其實就只有這樣。
我們都一樣，喜歡跟喜歡的人一起。
有些人無論怎樣，都不會是你想見的那位
大概我們都是這樣的人吧。
分別也許只在於誰傷人與誰被傷而已。
但到了最後，那也已經不重要了。

今年夏天寧靜的海

今年夏天，我住在海邊。安靜的等待，下一個冬天的未來。

JULY~ LY LY LY!

july, a year after jor, i'm going to school again
still schooling? ehem.. it's university i suppose XD
it's hard to believe that i'm a 2nd year student now
i'm a senior lar! so fast =.=lll
i really dunno what i've learnt loh so far
since the last 2 semesters' courses all are very very 'rojak'
till i could barely describe myself as a B.A(B.I) student =.=

don't believe me? let me explain to you all how 'rojak' they are!!!

1) Kenegaraan(Malaysian Nationhood)
2) TITAS
3) Hubungan Etnik(Ethnic Relation)
needless to say, i think all of us should know why they exist for lah~
and what they really mean to us loh, burden... =.=

4) Pertanian dan Manusia(Agriculture & Man)
this course is esp offered for upm student only
as upm's P stands for pertanian = agriculture XD
luckily my lecturer is good and i've learnt a lot during his class
agriculture is really important to man! REALLY!!!

5) BM Tinggi(Advanced Malay Language)
=.= sudah berapa lama i tak cakap bm? so, i dpt B- lagi loh! aduh~
anyway, i sekarang hampir biasa cakap bm dah...
sebab i dah kenal Prof. Lai dari kelantan,
cik kelantan ni memang increase my interest dalam speaking bm.. hahaha
sekarang i dah biasa cakap macam ni horrr... kawanku~

6) Pengucapan Awam(Public Speaking/Oration)
haha.. i get B- again, our faculty's Vice Dean killed me with his iron hand : p

and 2 university courses compulsory for us to take
just to 'fill up' my credit hours only loh! =. =lll
so, i took something useful course
instead of taking some easy scoring useless course... haha
forget about scoring, i rather spend my time on learning

7) Information Technology and Its Applications
i get A- for this! consider not bad at least it didn't incriminate my score!

8) Management
B- for my 0% involvement, haha i'm easy satisfied XD

so how? 'rojak' enough?? haha...
i've taken 13 courses for the past year
therefore, there are only 5 more courses left
that i might feel a lil bit more related : p(not really also)

9 & 10) Korean Level I & II
priority of foreign language study for us, B.A. students =D wahaha...
syok leh, and i get A for both levels = D paiseh...hehe

11) A Survey of Prose Forms and Poetry in English
this course hor... we really going for play play only loh XD
1st - i've no interest at all, it doesn't seem related except the word 'English' haha
2nd - my declaration: it's really an advance study! hard for me to understand
3rd - my lecturer's a bummer! a professional bummer! i worship him! XD
as a result, i get myself another B- XD wakakaka...

12) Expository Writing
this is also a common course for everyone actually
not really my field study but still i get myself an A- = D

Finally, the only one course that i may find myself familiar with
my major related course

13) Introduction to General Linguistics
intro + general, i think i can roughly aware of what i'll soon study
haha.. A- for my awareness and understanding! = P

As a conclusion, as you can see, a year after
what should i become...... leh?
hohoho... a professional B.A student?
i can see the difficulty in it loh! wakakakaka
as i'm still speaking pasar punya broken english loh
my CGPA for 1st semester is only 3.3333
unexpectedly for my 2nd semester i was able to get 3.3611
hahahahaha! there's even improvement in between XD
okok, i know it's not good enough for you guys
but for my own concern
i think this is more than i deserve loh due to my idleness
hahaha okay let's no talk about it

so what's coming next? Another year of July
My 2nd year, i'm going to start my minor course lu~~~
but i'll only start with 1 course
so, no worry i guess(confidently speaking out)
while for those remaining courses will be
all related to my major with the initial code of BBI
hooray~no more 'rojak' study anymore! kakaka
i need advanced study!!!
yeah yeah... therefore i'm looking forward to it
i'm so looking forward to study hard and study smart
at the same time as well, i'm looking forward to
play hard and play smart too! wakaka : p~~~~
dear friends~ don't forget to drop me a call
whenever you're free!
-no extra charges applied-
LOL =D

wow long post full of words huh?
due to the sequela i get after i read
someone else's interesting and funny blog
even my tone changed into...
so cincai tone jor loh!
LOL
whatever... gotta stop here

JULY~ LY LY LY!~~~
i'm waiting for you! = D

Dear Diary

the fact is, i wrote diary.
the problem is, i'm not writing a diary.
the question is, will i still write diary?



haha... whatever
i'm just going to tell facts in my blog now
i 'met' my old diary books few days ago
and i paid them a visit as well
guess what? they remind me once again

i'm a better ashley now

let me introduce you guys these great heroes of my life
they indicate the transformation of myself
i guess that's what a diary means in life, right?






hehe... diary
i'm going to reveal you to the public! =P
(p/s: i'm proud to have you in my life)

This is my 2nd book of diary in 2004
(yeah i fail to keep the very 1st one back in 2002)

front view
yeah dolce & gabbana... whatever
i did enjoy scrapbook-ing by that time
yet another economic way to alleviate my boredom
and entertain my sight! this is more than a diary
it's a scrapbook actually! many stuff inside =)

back view
=D i like this better cuz it's a pocket
i can change the look of it whenever i like

another scrapbook-ing work of mine
my best friends(2 exceptions) photo back in...
err 2003? i can't recall at all! poor memory T_T
(p/s: miss those days! it was a barbecue night... didn't have for so long d)

front page for my diary section
quote:
"celebrating life together is the best way to strengthen your friendship!"
and i did it, i've done i, i'll do it

a piece of memo in between
here's my diary during form 5, senior high period
oh! that was a pathetic ash back then
too pessimistic!!! >_<

full view of my writings
'entries' during my 'after spm' period!
my classmates used to complain on my handwriting
too small.. yeah, as a matter of fact
this really isn't reader-friendly at all, but it's writer-friendly still!
who else will read this but me? LOL

i love to do drawing upon my words, do u?
(oh! my words could be read clearly, but i don't mind, it's trifle)

little dolpin, love to draw it after watching a drama
(p/s: why did i edit this pic? haha..
something's need to be censored i suppose =p)










This is my 3rd book of diary in 2005
(the most 'full-filling' book among all, memories~ it's my favourite!)

front view
i put a sticker on it, to... modify it a bit?
i think this book is good enough
i don't have to do much
i don't wanna spoil the pretty face anyway =)



full view of my writings
see the girl next to my signature? make me laugh XD
the memo beside is my last piece of 2004



as time goes by, my words get
smaller and smaller~ more and more~










This is my 4th book of diary in 2006
(it lasted less than 10 pages, something bad happened, never wish to jot it down!
still, i like the 'entries' before, colourful! as i was taking P.A course during upper6
colour pencil! my old buddy~)

front view
this book, cost me rm7.90!
i really have no idea why i bought this thing!
i guess this is one of the reason that stop me from diary-ing!
LOL~ i'll sure blame on it!



i did it again~ modifying...
with hellokitty, my favourite cartoon!
still, i could scarcely succeed T_T blame it on the cover!


drawing section, just before i started my ride(write) =D


memo stickers were added to 'discourse' my stories! =)


oh! that's a funny story!
but i'm just going to let you see the colours


after i stopped diary-ing, i used to write something inside
like this, just doodling around
(p/s: but i mean what i wrote, i wrote what i mean)









This is my 5th book of diary in 2007
(i did not wrote much either, just during my working life at
casino de genting as a croupier or dealer)

front view
'little black book' appears again if u notice! ok, if don't, forget it~
see the title? i'm HOME AWAY~ haha from jan till may... long?



back view
nothing special.. just cut and paste... sth good, sth nice =)



full view of my writings
so tidy... haha... it didn't last for long!



instead of just jotting down my story, i did some exercises on it too
during my training period! it's a dealer's routine!
yeah~ i'm a profession!! hehe =p



last but not least, my drawing
just to cheer myself up! =p







ok... that's all about the fact!
will the question get an answer?
no idea
LOL
let's just wait for the enthusiasm to come back
i'll still enjoy visit those buddies once in a while
they remind me, encourage me, teach me, save me
much appreciate to u guys~

till then,
i guess it's the end of my today's post









goodbye diary!

with love,
ashley

my foible, my lies

i cry easily
my tears would drop easily
doesn't sound like me right?
yeah cuz you never see me cry, frequently
but still what you see isn't always what you 'get'
get it?
i don't cry, that's the lie
the truth is, i can never cry in front of you
you, you and you, all of you

my foible is?
i love to cry
i love to make myself cry whenever i'm 'free' and alone
why?
does foible need a reason?
ok, just to make myself feel better cuz i believe that
there will always be rainbow after rain
so i need "rain drop, tear drop"
reasonable right?
just an economic way to cure my depression

ironically, whenever you are around me
no matter how sad i am
how desperate my tears tend to fall
my face insist to remain silent
fake a smile

yeah, that's a lie
but you'll never know
i know i'm quite good in acting
that's why until now
you still have no idea about who i am, who i used to be
or you just choose to ignore, either do i
i choose to act silly, we all like to act silly
nothing happened, nothing at all

i'm a weirdo sometimes
i do things that not everyone does
i think things that not everyone thinks
i get things that not everyone gets

so
do u get my lies?

I Guess It's All About You

i woke up in the night thinking all the reasons why?
i tore it into pieces lines telling you i am so fine
my tears wouldn't say goodbye
keeping all those faiths aside

what do you feel like hanging in this life?
what do you feel like living in this lie?
i won't change anything
i won't keep anything at all
so tell me
what do you feel like living in this life?
what should you feel like leaving this behind?

i guess i'll never wake up and see you in my eyes...
i guess it's all about you saying goodbye
goodbye...



ashley
this is a song written by me =D cheer~

Waiting?

every night
i unwillingly keep myself 'to become unconscious'
or either way i call it 'to fall asleep'
why? silly thought of mine:
being unconscious in the night is little bit a waste of time
LOL
stupid right?
that's what my sis said about me =D
ya i agree with her, but but but
i just can hardly make myself to fall asleep purposely
i just can easily make myself to stay awake as well

LOL
well...what have i been thinking tonight?

i'm thinking about a matter of 'waiting'
waiting for the best instead of the one u have now?
or else u will be regretted someday?
how to predict the future?
whether or not you'll get the best?
i dunno, either do u(ya the fortune teller might know)
but i guess i can at least
predict how i'll feel in the future right?
oh ya... not predict but know
i know the one i'm going to have will always be the best
while others that appear soon will only be someone else's best
is it a good idea? no idea really...

as a matter of fact
the truth will always make u an opportunity
to see a better, nicer, prettier 'whatever' in the future
but i can sure that, it won't and never be
the best, the nicest, the prettiest
as your desire will never stop populate
desire n expectation for the best should be vanished after all?

so... should i made up my mind to keep a good
instead a better or the best?
this is a questioning post actually
not an expository post
LOL
so anyone with any idea
pls leave n share your idea with me
thanks!




ashley
[sun is rising... ash is falling... asleep~ LOL]